Theme Song

Shelby asked me the other day what my theme song was and I told her I didn't have one yet. Nothing had spoken to me. For those of you who aren't aware, when you are going thru some trial or tribulation a theme song is a NECESSITY! It is the song you play that helps you get your day going. Really, you can play it anytime during the day when you need that extra BOOST.

Saturday morning at 5am it came to me, my theme song. It's perfect for me.

Golden...by Jill Scott

Heyyy, Ohh, Heyyy, Yeah, Ohh, Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeahhhh

I'm taking my freedom
Pulling it off the shelf
Putting it on my chain
Wear it around my neck
I'm taking my freedom
Putting it in my car
Wherever I choose to go
It will take me far

I'm livin' my life like it's golden
Livin' my life like it's golden
Livin' my life like it's golden, golden
Livin' my life like it's golden
Livin' my life like it's golden, golden,

I'm taking my own freedom
Putting it in my song
Singing loud and strong
Grooving all day long
I'm taking my freedom
Putting it in my stroll
I'll be high-steppin' y'all
Letting the joy unfold

I'm holding on to my freedom
Can't take it from me
I was born into it
It comes naturally
I'm strumming my own freedom
Playing the god in me
Representing his glory
Hope he's proud of me

I'm living my life like its golden, golden, golden, golden, golden, golden

Livin' my life like it's golden
It really matters to me, Ohhh

I LOVE THIS SONG SO MUCH!

CELEBRATION

I have an attorney!!! Waaaahooo! I've been searching and searching trying to find the right one to respresent me in the divorce and now I've got her. In celebration, Shelby brought home some margarita mix and she made us margaritas. They were SOOOO good (even though there was barely any liquor in them). Yayyy for me and for my babies.

I Believe

These last few weeks have been very trying and unfortunately there are more to come but I Believe that I'll make it through. There is a hearing coming up on June 2nd where the judge will decide whether it's Bobby or me that will get temporary custody of our children while we are going through this divorce and there is a trial coming up on July 27th against Bobby for the charges I pressed against me for threatening me. I Believe that sometimes, to get to the other side of something where there is peace you have to go through that "something". Whatever it may be and that going through it makes you that much stronger.

Even though I worry constantly about what all of this is doing to our children (because they are going through it with us) I Believe that children, even sometimes more than adults, are resilient. And they too, in the long run, will make it through this to the other side where there is peace. Of course a big part of how they handle things is determined by how we handle things.

I believe that what goes around comes around. Call it Karma or whatever you want but how you treat others ALWAYS, ALWAYS comes back around to you. When you pretend that you are someone that you are not, at all times wearing a "mask" so that you can fool those around you into believing you are one person when really you are another, at the end of the day you are utterly and completly alone. It's then, in those quiet and dark hours of the night, that all you'll have to hold onto are your regret because you've pushed away those closest to you, those who loved you the most even when they knew you for who you truly are.

This I Believe.

God Doesn't Give You More Than You Can Handle

I've heard that all of my life and I believe it to be true. I just think that sometimes the Lord, in all of his infinate wisdom, gives me more credit than I should have. Now is one of those times. I'm going thru it ya'll but it's not just me, it's Precious and Max too. I've often thought of how much personal info. I should include in this blog and I'm still not sure. I will say this...I have left my husband...for the last time. I had to come to Georgia to be safe. Unfortunately I have to go back to Texas for a court date and I'm scared but I will do what I have to do to keep my children safe as well as myself.

Keep me in your prayers