Shelby asked me the other day what my theme song was and I told her I didn't have one yet. Nothing had spoken to me. For those of you who aren't aware, when you are going thru some trial or tribulation a theme song is a NECESSITY! It is the song you play that helps you get your day going. Really, you can play it anytime during the day when you need that extra BOOST.
Saturday morning at 5am it came to me, my theme song. It's perfect for me.
Golden...by Jill Scott
Heyyy, Ohh, Heyyy, Yeah, Ohh, Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeahhhh
I'm taking my freedom
Pulling it off the shelf
Putting it on my chain
Wear it around my neck
I'm taking my freedom
Putting it in my car
Wherever I choose to go
It will take me far
I'm livin' my life like it's golden
Livin' my life like it's golden
Livin' my life like it's golden, golden
Livin' my life like it's golden
Livin' my life like it's golden, golden,
I'm taking my own freedom
Putting it in my song
Singing loud and strong
Grooving all day long
I'm taking my freedom
Putting it in my stroll
I'll be high-steppin' y'all
Letting the joy unfold
I'm holding on to my freedom
Can't take it from me
I was born into it
It comes naturally
I'm strumming my own freedom
Playing the god in me
Representing his glory
Hope he's proud of me
I'm living my life like its golden, golden, golden, golden, golden, golden
Livin' my life like it's golden
It really matters to me, Ohhh
I LOVE THIS SONG SO MUCH!
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Saturday, May 30, 2009
CELEBRATION
I have an attorney!!! Waaaahooo! I've been searching and searching trying to find the right one to respresent me in the divorce and now I've got her. In celebration, Shelby brought home some margarita mix and she made us margaritas. They were SOOOO good (even though there was barely any liquor in them). Yayyy for me and for my babies.
Monday, May 25, 2009
I Believe
These last few weeks have been very trying and unfortunately there are more to come but I Believe that I'll make it through. There is a hearing coming up on June 2nd where the judge will decide whether it's Bobby or me that will get temporary custody of our children while we are going through this divorce and there is a trial coming up on July 27th against Bobby for the charges I pressed against me for threatening me. I Believe that sometimes, to get to the other side of something where there is peace you have to go through that "something". Whatever it may be and that going through it makes you that much stronger.
Even though I worry constantly about what all of this is doing to our children (because they are going through it with us) I Believe that children, even sometimes more than adults, are resilient. And they too, in the long run, will make it through this to the other side where there is peace. Of course a big part of how they handle things is determined by how we handle things.
I believe that what goes around comes around. Call it Karma or whatever you want but how you treat others ALWAYS, ALWAYS comes back around to you. When you pretend that you are someone that you are not, at all times wearing a "mask" so that you can fool those around you into believing you are one person when really you are another, at the end of the day you are utterly and completly alone. It's then, in those quiet and dark hours of the night, that all you'll have to hold onto are your regret because you've pushed away those closest to you, those who loved you the most even when they knew you for who you truly are.
This I Believe.
Even though I worry constantly about what all of this is doing to our children (because they are going through it with us) I Believe that children, even sometimes more than adults, are resilient. And they too, in the long run, will make it through this to the other side where there is peace. Of course a big part of how they handle things is determined by how we handle things.
I believe that what goes around comes around. Call it Karma or whatever you want but how you treat others ALWAYS, ALWAYS comes back around to you. When you pretend that you are someone that you are not, at all times wearing a "mask" so that you can fool those around you into believing you are one person when really you are another, at the end of the day you are utterly and completly alone. It's then, in those quiet and dark hours of the night, that all you'll have to hold onto are your regret because you've pushed away those closest to you, those who loved you the most even when they knew you for who you truly are.
This I Believe.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
God Doesn't Give You More Than You Can Handle
I've heard that all of my life and I believe it to be true. I just think that sometimes the Lord, in all of his infinate wisdom, gives me more credit than I should have. Now is one of those times. I'm going thru it ya'll but it's not just me, it's Precious and Max too. I've often thought of how much personal info. I should include in this blog and I'm still not sure. I will say this...I have left my husband...for the last time. I had to come to Georgia to be safe. Unfortunately I have to go back to Texas for a court date and I'm scared but I will do what I have to do to keep my children safe as well as myself.
Keep me in your prayers
Keep me in your prayers
Monday, April 27, 2009
What's Goin' On?
I haven't been posting any more pics of our Las Vegas trip because quite frankly, the whole uploading process/writting about what was going on in the pics was getting on my nerves (totally my fault cause i took so many gee-dee pictures...smile) Anywho, this post is just gonna be words.
I am feeling pretty good now. It's been a week and four days since I had my "procedure" (for those of you who don't know, I had some work done on my "mysterious lady parts" to quote Ricky Bobby in Talladega Nights) done I am having very minimal pain and am able to move around quite normally. I went grocery shopping this morning and that didn't go to good. I was feeling faint and very warm, which seems to happen now whenever I exert myself but I made it through.
I received some SUPER-WONDERFUL presents from my very bestest friend in the whole world (Shelby). I'll take a picture and post tomorrow.
Other important news on the homefront, Precious and Max have their TAKS testing tomorrow (Precious also has hers on Weds.) TAKS stands for Texas Assessment of Knowledge and Skills. Starting in 3rd grade and continuing on thru high school, students take these tests close to the end of the school year (for both math and reading). They have to pass these tests to be passed on to the next grade. I don't like the idea that they have to pass these tests in order to pass to the next grade. My reasoning is this, both Precious and Max have been in the Gifted and Talented Program since Kindergarten and they both have always STAYED on Honor Roll (well, Precious wasn't always on it this year. She seemed to be having trouble staying focused this year but we've nipped that in the bud). So my question has always been, if they excel all school year but don't pass the TAKS Test, how do you think you can hold them back. We, of course, have never had a problem with them failing these tests. As a matter of fact, Max just took his Reading TAKS a few weeks ago and was given a Commendation because he only missed one. The passing score is 2100 and Max scored 2500 (yes...those are MY genes running thru him). And every school year Precious gets commended for scoring high also.
Ok, so off of my soapbox. I'll try to post more Vegas pics tomorrow. Right now I'm going to sign off because I need to write.
I am feeling pretty good now. It's been a week and four days since I had my "procedure" (for those of you who don't know, I had some work done on my "mysterious lady parts" to quote Ricky Bobby in Talladega Nights) done I am having very minimal pain and am able to move around quite normally. I went grocery shopping this morning and that didn't go to good. I was feeling faint and very warm, which seems to happen now whenever I exert myself but I made it through.
I received some SUPER-WONDERFUL presents from my very bestest friend in the whole world (Shelby). I'll take a picture and post tomorrow.
Other important news on the homefront, Precious and Max have their TAKS testing tomorrow (Precious also has hers on Weds.) TAKS stands for Texas Assessment of Knowledge and Skills. Starting in 3rd grade and continuing on thru high school, students take these tests close to the end of the school year (for both math and reading). They have to pass these tests to be passed on to the next grade. I don't like the idea that they have to pass these tests in order to pass to the next grade. My reasoning is this, both Precious and Max have been in the Gifted and Talented Program since Kindergarten and they both have always STAYED on Honor Roll (well, Precious wasn't always on it this year. She seemed to be having trouble staying focused this year but we've nipped that in the bud). So my question has always been, if they excel all school year but don't pass the TAKS Test, how do you think you can hold them back. We, of course, have never had a problem with them failing these tests. As a matter of fact, Max just took his Reading TAKS a few weeks ago and was given a Commendation because he only missed one. The passing score is 2100 and Max scored 2500 (yes...those are MY genes running thru him). And every school year Precious gets commended for scoring high also.
Ok, so off of my soapbox. I'll try to post more Vegas pics tomorrow. Right now I'm going to sign off because I need to write.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Vegas Part Three
Saturday morning had us all up bright and early to prepare for the wedding. While the boys went wandering around the casino, I helped Yolanda do her hair.
While waiting on a cab to take us the the wedding chapel, Kel and Bobby decided to get their "GQ-Ebony-Man-of-Style" man poses on.
Yolanda all dressed up and pretty waiting to get married. There was a very clear sign posted inside the chapel stating that outside cameras/video cameras weren't allowed inside the chapel nor on the grounds. I really wasn't trying to hear that. I mean, I'm a scrapbooker...I take pictures
This is Yolanda's cousin who was in town from Indianapolis. She was her Maid of Honor
Okay so the story behind this picture is hilarious. Me, Bobby, Kel and Yolanda's cousin's boyfriend were all hanging out in the chapel waiting for the minister to come in so they could begin the ceramony. We were crackin jokes and talkin about people when the lady that works there came in and told us that the cameras were on so don't be talking about people (the ceremony was being shown on the internet in real-time) and that the minister would be in in a minute. Kel (groom) who was on the phone at the time stops in the middle of his conversation and says "What? It's about to start? I better get my last boogie on as a free man" and then he starts this combination Fred Sandford/George Jefferson "funky-chicken" dance. I mean, he was doin it hard. People back home (texas) started calling his/Bobby's phone asking what the heck he was doing. We all had a good laugh off of that one
While waiting on a cab to take us the the wedding chapel, Kel and Bobby decided to get their "GQ-Ebony-Man-of-Style" man poses on.
Yolanda all dressed up and pretty waiting to get married. There was a very clear sign posted inside the chapel stating that outside cameras/video cameras weren't allowed inside the chapel nor on the grounds. I really wasn't trying to hear that. I mean, I'm a scrapbooker...I take pictures
This is Yolanda's cousin who was in town from Indianapolis. She was her Maid of Honor
Okay so the story behind this picture is hilarious. Me, Bobby, Kel and Yolanda's cousin's boyfriend were all hanging out in the chapel waiting for the minister to come in so they could begin the ceramony. We were crackin jokes and talkin about people when the lady that works there came in and told us that the cameras were on so don't be talking about people (the ceremony was being shown on the internet in real-time) and that the minister would be in in a minute. Kel (groom) who was on the phone at the time stops in the middle of his conversation and says "What? It's about to start? I better get my last boogie on as a free man" and then he starts this combination Fred Sandford/George Jefferson "funky-chicken" dance. I mean, he was doin it hard. People back home (texas) started calling his/Bobby's phone asking what the heck he was doing. We all had a good laugh off of that one
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Vegas Part Two
Our first night in Vegas. We all got dressed and prepared to meet Yolanda's cousin and her boyfriend down at their hotel (Caesar's Palace) to go to a party. We ended up staying at our hotel and hanging out once we found out that they'd paid a $90 cover-charge to get into said party and once they were inside, it was SUPER crowded. The four of us tried our hand at the slot machines (I spent $10 and won back .75...ohhhh...BALLIN') then went to the club in our hotel and got our jam-boggie on. Yolanda's cousin/cousin's boyfriend and another couple eventually met up with us at our hotel. We all ended up at the craps table (total of eight of us). Lemme just say this...CRAPS IS NOW MY MOST FAVORITE GAME (is that what it's called) EVER! I see how you can get addicted. One of the guys that was working the table (don't know what his official title is but he was the one that took your money and placed your bet for you) was SUPER helpful. I didn't know how to play but he walked me thru everything I needed to know
Either he was just really nice or...the fact that I made sure I smiled really pretty anytime I needed help (LOL...hey, one uses the gifts one has). I started with $20, won $120 then lost $70...I'm not totally sure, but I think I did pretty good seeing as how I had more than I stated with.
Kel, Yolanda and Bobby posing. We were making our way downstairs to the casino
Me and Bobby (he always has to do extra) BTW...isn't my hair pretty? I got it cut for the trip. I like it a lot
Me posing with "The King"
Okay, so in the casino there were tables to play craps/blackjack, etc. that were positioned around a small stage where, at all times, there were two girls dancing. They didn't strip or anything, just shook their pitifully small booties with no discernible rhythm. I found them wildly entertaining.
Me trying my hand at the slot machines. I think they're all "fixed"
Bobby and I dancing
Either he was just really nice or...the fact that I made sure I smiled really pretty anytime I needed help (LOL...hey, one uses the gifts one has). I started with $20, won $120 then lost $70...I'm not totally sure, but I think I did pretty good seeing as how I had more than I stated with.
Kel, Yolanda and Bobby posing. We were making our way downstairs to the casino
Me and Bobby (he always has to do extra) BTW...isn't my hair pretty? I got it cut for the trip. I like it a lot
Me posing with "The King"
Okay, so in the casino there were tables to play craps/blackjack, etc. that were positioned around a small stage where, at all times, there were two girls dancing. They didn't strip or anything, just shook their pitifully small booties with no discernible rhythm. I found them wildly entertaining.
Me trying my hand at the slot machines. I think they're all "fixed"
Bobby and I dancing More photos later. My meds are kicking in so i'm going to sleep.
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