Happy Halloween 2009

CELEBRATING HALLOWEEN W/OUR FAMILY


























Top left: Little Terry, Middle: Max,
Bottom Left: TyWan

The girls took the boys out for Trick or Treat this year. It was the first time they were allowed to go out without an adult. They were very excited about it and all got TONS of candy.

The girls said they were dressed as crayons...lol.

Terry wins the award for the Most Creative Costume

as Blade

What's Been Goin On???

GUESS WHO TURNED 13???

If you guessed my Precious girl you'd be correct. I don't like at all having a teenager. I want her to stay my lil 'ole girl.

She is the typical teenager, loves clothes, music and her cell phone. She has her own style, which I sometimes don't understand but I'm sure my mama didn't always understand mine either.

For her birthday, I gave her some money and me and her along with her Aunt Lia and cousin Taysia went to the mall. Lia and I let the girls go their own way (a first for both of us) and they really enjoyed themselves.

Precious & Taysia at the mall

The girls making cupcakes for Precious B-day

Precious shopping

Me and my girl

Family Reunion...Sorta...But Not

Okay, ya'll gotta scroll down to the bottom to get the story on these pics. I forget sometimes how this thing is set up...psh. Get offa my back about it...

Jocky, Me & Squishy's Mama

I miss gettin' all these sweet kisses from my Squishy

Squishy's Mama taking a nap after clubbin' all night

Shelby and Squishy's Mama

My Squish-Mish sush a big girl now

Can't believe I used to baby-sit these two

Such a handsome cuzzin'...spreading chocolate covered goodness to the world...the world

Squishy's Mama looks more and more like her mama...so pretty. I miss my Aunt Debbie

Last weekend my cousins Jakki, Squishy's Mama (Kenya) and Squish (Neveah) came in from Florida to visit me. The arrived in Norcross on Friday to spend the night with Kenya's best friend and then the following night, came to stay the night with me. It was so good to see all of them. Jakka and Squish came up friday night and we went to the movies to see Land of the Lost which was flipping hilarious. When they arrived on Saturday, we really didn't do much. Ordered some pizzas and watched some movies (The Curious Case of Benjamin Button...pretty good but flippin long. If it ain't Lord of The Rings it don't get to be almost 3hrs long) but I really, really enjoyed myself. It doesn't take much to make me happy when I am around my family.

I love you Jocky...I love you Squishy's Mama...I LOVE YOU A VERY MUCH SQUISH!!

Theme Song

Shelby asked me the other day what my theme song was and I told her I didn't have one yet. Nothing had spoken to me. For those of you who aren't aware, when you are going thru some trial or tribulation a theme song is a NECESSITY! It is the song you play that helps you get your day going. Really, you can play it anytime during the day when you need that extra BOOST.

Saturday morning at 5am it came to me, my theme song. It's perfect for me.

Golden...by Jill Scott

Heyyy, Ohh, Heyyy, Yeah, Ohh, Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeahhhh

I'm taking my freedom
Pulling it off the shelf
Putting it on my chain
Wear it around my neck
I'm taking my freedom
Putting it in my car
Wherever I choose to go
It will take me far

I'm livin' my life like it's golden
Livin' my life like it's golden
Livin' my life like it's golden, golden
Livin' my life like it's golden
Livin' my life like it's golden, golden,

I'm taking my own freedom
Putting it in my song
Singing loud and strong
Grooving all day long
I'm taking my freedom
Putting it in my stroll
I'll be high-steppin' y'all
Letting the joy unfold

I'm holding on to my freedom
Can't take it from me
I was born into it
It comes naturally
I'm strumming my own freedom
Playing the god in me
Representing his glory
Hope he's proud of me

I'm living my life like its golden, golden, golden, golden, golden, golden

Livin' my life like it's golden
It really matters to me, Ohhh

I LOVE THIS SONG SO MUCH!

CELEBRATION

I have an attorney!!! Waaaahooo! I've been searching and searching trying to find the right one to respresent me in the divorce and now I've got her. In celebration, Shelby brought home some margarita mix and she made us margaritas. They were SOOOO good (even though there was barely any liquor in them). Yayyy for me and for my babies.

I Believe

These last few weeks have been very trying and unfortunately there are more to come but I Believe that I'll make it through. There is a hearing coming up on June 2nd where the judge will decide whether it's Bobby or me that will get temporary custody of our children while we are going through this divorce and there is a trial coming up on July 27th against Bobby for the charges I pressed against me for threatening me. I Believe that sometimes, to get to the other side of something where there is peace you have to go through that "something". Whatever it may be and that going through it makes you that much stronger.

Even though I worry constantly about what all of this is doing to our children (because they are going through it with us) I Believe that children, even sometimes more than adults, are resilient. And they too, in the long run, will make it through this to the other side where there is peace. Of course a big part of how they handle things is determined by how we handle things.

I believe that what goes around comes around. Call it Karma or whatever you want but how you treat others ALWAYS, ALWAYS comes back around to you. When you pretend that you are someone that you are not, at all times wearing a "mask" so that you can fool those around you into believing you are one person when really you are another, at the end of the day you are utterly and completly alone. It's then, in those quiet and dark hours of the night, that all you'll have to hold onto are your regret because you've pushed away those closest to you, those who loved you the most even when they knew you for who you truly are.

This I Believe.

God Doesn't Give You More Than You Can Handle

I've heard that all of my life and I believe it to be true. I just think that sometimes the Lord, in all of his infinate wisdom, gives me more credit than I should have. Now is one of those times. I'm going thru it ya'll but it's not just me, it's Precious and Max too. I've often thought of how much personal info. I should include in this blog and I'm still not sure. I will say this...I have left my husband...for the last time. I had to come to Georgia to be safe. Unfortunately I have to go back to Texas for a court date and I'm scared but I will do what I have to do to keep my children safe as well as myself.

Keep me in your prayers